One of my roommates is going to a protest. I've never seen him protest.
He asked if I want to go with him. After some thought, I determined I'm too disabled to participate. I couldn't handle the grocery store yesterday, how the fuck would I handle the chaos of a protest? I'd be a risk to myself and others.
I feel quite broken, defective, right now.
Guilt.
Plenty of negative feelings.
@hellomiakoda@pdx.socialI did, however, ask if there was anything I could do here at home to facilitate his participation. Perhaps a task I could take off his plate, or something to help him prep.
I still feel like shit though
I used to be at protests. Recovery time was always awful, but I could do it. It's just not something I can do anymore. That is very much not a pleasant feeling.
It feels a lot like when I finally applied for SSDI, and when I accepted a caregiver showing up every week. ...just, worse.
Food is always important. Sugar especially, for stressful situations. Prepare a box with berries, cookies maybe even sugar cubes or the like.
There will be people there who will meet their limits just like you did before but haven't realized it yet. Maybe you can teach your roomate about how to notice them and possibly how to help them?
I hope I don't put additional stress on you and these are just a few of many things that can be done from afar. For me, it helps to know I'm enabling others when I can't personally participate.
Hope it can help you feel less like shit and more like an anchor at home. Your roomate will know you're with them.
@hellomiakoda make him a awesome sign! 
…or “swaps” to give other protesters (friendship bracelets or thingies)
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